Thoughts 10/28/2007 October 28, 2007
Posted by Kelsey Martineau in Philosophy, Religion.Tags: Philosophy, Religion
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Tests from God. Do they exist? This very question has plagued my mind for the last week or so, because of things I’ve been experiencing. I guess the truth is, in my life as of late, the existence of God as I’ve always perceived Him, has changed a little. I still believe in God, I just don’t know what to believe. I don’t know how much to accept from the Bible as accurate, and I’m searching for the answer as to why I should arrogantly accept Christianity as the “right” religion. However, I’ve had experiences in my life that help me believe. Christians use the word “heathen” to describe religions that they believe are wrong from their own personal standpoint, or simply use it for people that do not attend church. The thing that most Christians do not understand however, is that the word was used far before Christianity was born. The arrogance of most Christians bothers me. There’s a religious arrogance that some take that just gives you the vibe that they think they are right, and the rest of the world is wrong. There are also civil disputes within sects of Christianity. Baptists vs. Methodists vs. Catholics vs. <insert any other here> The doctrines of beliefs sometimes vary greatly.
Does God test you to the point where you will become an Atheist? Does that make sense? For an example, if you know the story of Job, you know that Job got royally screwed throughout the story. I stop and ask myself if I lost that much, would I have remained faithful to God? I feel like my faith has been tested so much over the spring and summer. Things that I never thought would have happened to me, actually did happen. I think 2007 overall has been a crappy year for most people. Is it God testing me? Is God testing all these other people? If so, how far is it going to go? What else am I going to have to endure to prove that I am faithful? If I theoretically renounced Christianity and became an Atheist or an Agnostic, and all these hardships were “tests,” is that what God wants? Let’s philosophically twist the idea; Let’s say I fail the test. God knew I was going to pass or fail, so why should I endure it? Didn’t God know whether or not Job was going to remain faithful? I get so tired of hearing the phrase that suffering builds character, etc… Such an overused, scapegoat phrase.
I feel like I give out more in life than I receive. I don’t really say that arrogantly, it’s just the truth. I feel like I keep on giving and giving to people, and I am the one that gets screwed in the end. I feel like this year has changed my outlook on a lot of things. My trust in people for one thing. It’s been completely and utterly destroyed. I went to trusting almost every friend and acquaintance I know, to trusting about six people on the planet. But, maybe that’s not such a bad thing.
Thoughts 10/2/2007 October 2, 2007
Posted by Kelsey Martineau in Politics.Tags: Politics
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I was browsing on the popular social-networking site facebook.com earlier and found that some local individuals had started an anti-liberal group. Ok is it just me, or is this a little extreme? I think it’s absurd. These people are so closed minded to any ideas other than their own. I find it impossible to think that way. I think everything should be about free-thought and expressing opinions, not close-minded ignorance.
I’ve always been that way on most issues. I am against the death penalty, but I’m not one of these people that will argue you down about it. I respect your opinion. To me, people that want to argue with you on political points-of-view are either ignorant, or insecure in their beliefs. Just like faith, people hate having their views and opinions shaken. Why can’t everyone stop and respect what other people think? This issue alone is why I choose “apathetic” as an option on politics. Not necessarily because I don’t care, but because I am not making a statement when I answer a question like that. I don’t believe what I believe to sway people. I don’t believe what I believe to hate others or belittle others. I believe what I believe because in my eyes it’s what is morally right. People that are extreme are doing nothing but ridiculing themselves in my opinion. I don’t discuss politics when my friends do, because what I have to say won’t change their mind, and most likely someone will just get upset. I know a guy that will turn blood-red and get fighting mad if you disagree with him on a political issue. I’m sorry but that’s over the top.
Living in the south though, just about every single person here is a conservative nut, to the point where they are willing to get their 20 gauge shotgun out of the back of their pickup if you make a statement that disagrees with their doctrine of belief. As I stated before, I never have believed in the death penalty. It doesn’t follow with my personal beliefs and what I think is right and wrong. If you don’t believe that, it’s ok with me. However, if I were to make that statement to 90% of the people in the state that I live in, they’d say I was a liberal son of a bitch that needs to be burned at the stake. What’s wrong with this picture?
**Update October 17th, 2007**
I’ve received several emails similar to the following:
Kelsey,
Does this secure your seat politically as a liberal? That’s the vibe I get from reading this post.
Answer: No, this post doesn’t reveal my political standpoint. You’re probably referring to the statement “However, if I were to make that statement to 90% of the people in the state that I live in, they’d say I was a liberal son of a bitch that needs to be burned at the stake.” That statement simply implies that people place stereotypes too fast, especially in the south where I live. I haven’t and never will reveal my political standpoint on this site.
Thoughts 9/23/2007 September 23, 2007
Posted by Kelsey Martineau in Psychology, Sociology.Tags: Psychology, Sociology
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*Suggested Topic by Olgaolgaolga*
The suggested topic was:
what’s insanity?? not a dictionary.com definition, but in a clear human respect…what makes us crazy? and who’s to say what’s not?
Excellent, excellent question. Questions like this are the exact reason that the “Suggest a Topic” page exists. The first thing I thought when I read this question was a blog I did a while back about what sets standards of what is right or wrong in our world, and who’s to say what is or isn’t “normal.” I’ll put the link to that post at the end of this blog.
Insanity, as I’ve always seen it, is doing the exact same thing over and over, expecting a different outcome. For example, I want to create a table. I take the nail and put it in the wrong place. In my opinion, insanity is taking that nail, and trying the exact same thing numerous times. Of course that is a metaphor, but I think you catch the meaning. To an extent however, we as humans do this. The insane don’t know they are insane; insane individuals believe they are sane and the world is crazy. If someone stops and says, “Hey, I need mental help,” or “I need to be institutionalized,” they aren’t insane. Don’t put insanity in the same category as alcoholism, drug-addiction, or many other similar disorders they have clubs/meetings for. The first step to recovery in those type situations is admitting you have a problem. Insanity doesn’t work that way. As far as what makes as crazy, there are multiple opinions on the matter. Some say chemical imbalances in the brain. Some of the hardest to catch serial killers in the world were super-intelligent. Does the fact that they were mass murderers make them insane? That is one way a medical point-of-view plays into the question.
Being labeled “insane,” or “crazy” as the term you used in the third sentence of your question, is in some ways directly connected to the society you live in. For example, in many societies, things that American’s have done and said would label insane or crazy. If you observe many Native American rituals, they did many things that we refer to today as psychotic. However, at that time in history, it wasn’t taboo. It was the norm. The norm of your culture plays an enormous part in this. The societal structure is undoubtedly the number one reason certain things are considered to be strange/crazy/insane or whatever term you want to use.
Ignoring the sociological point of view on the question, I believe that some people confuse obsessions or other disorders with insanity. The term is one that is quite overused in our society. For example, one that has ADD or OCD, may be called insane, but that simply isn’t the case. People are generally stupid. I don’t say that in a condescending way, but it’s true. They don’t think. People sit back and do things every single day that are predictable, easily read, and generally stupid, and don’t catch their mistakes. I’ve seen it all throughout my life. That’s a little off topic though. Insanity and stupidity are two totally different things also, but people confuse those two constantly.
Thoughts 8/12/2007 August 12, 2007
Posted by Kelsey Martineau in Psychology.Tags: Psychology
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Life is so similar to a game of poker sometimes if you think about it. In poker, people unconsciously give off something called a “tell.” This means that judging by many factors, such as their facial expression, reaction when given cards, breathing, mannerisms, eye contact, collectiveness, amount they speak at the table, among hundreds of other things, you can actually read these people and figure out exactly what cards they are holding. Unless of course they are a pro, and have the ability to send “false tells,” but we’ll talk about that in a moment. Well, that being said, my point is that you can relate that to life. Why do some people act like they act and do the things they do? I don’t mean genetically opposed to surroundings while growing up, that is another post completely. What I’m referring to is why people have to complicate things? Why are simple situations sometimes referred to as uncomfortable or awkward? I think there are many factors here. Regardless of how perceptive you are, most likely you know the established behavior pattern of your friends, family, and those that are close to you. This being said, it’s quite easy to know when something is wrong, because that particular person may go out of the established pattern. However, many people are very clever. As I stated earlier, in poker there are “false tells.” False tells in life are quite different than those in poker. See, a false tell in life would be purposefully doing something in order to fool someone into believing either that everything is ok, or something is wrong, by either twisting the situation to meet their needs, harm someone, or simply increase drama. I’ve found that the more adamant individuals are about proving that they don’t act a particular way, the more likely it is that they are. This is the perfect example of a false tell. That person is over-compensating. For example, someone claiming they dislike conflict may actually like it, but feel that it’s wrong, therefore claiming they hate it, or try to avoid it. Look on millions of myspace or facebook profiles, and see what people say they hate. You’ll find women that claim they hate arrogant jerks, but they’ll be dating them. You’ll find people who hate drama, but cause it. It’s human nature. We’re programmed to attempt to be normal, or at least what the world views as normal. I’m starting to believe that honesty is a thing of the past.
I’ve been manipulated quite a few times in my life, and almost always catch it. This is an ability that everyone has, but some don’t use it or fine-tune it. Some people simply don’t pay attention to people, or simply don’t care. I have a few friends that wouldn’t even notice if I were bleeding out of my eyes, and others that know and can almost pinpoint exactly what’s happened to me when I’m down. I remember once a classmate of mine did a speech on how humans as a whole are “Generally stupid.” At the time I thought it was just him, but in the last few months I’ve rethought that speech, and he’s his points were pretty accurate. We as humans don’t think logically 99% of the time, especially women. I can’t wait for the feminist bloggers to hit me up with a derogatory comment, but sorry, it’s true. However, that being said, I believe that’s how God made us. Men are more logical (most of them anyway), and women are emotional.
Thoughts 7/29/2007 July 29, 2007
Posted by Kelsey Martineau in Philosophy, Psychology.Tags: Philosophy, Psychology
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The butterfly effect theory is something I’ve posted on a time or two, but I want to do an in-depth post on it. I honestly don’t think that people realize just how much one single event in your life plays a part. I think that most people sit back and just do things spastically, without considering consequences, outcomes, or the future. I mean, I’ll be honest, it has happened to me. I like to try not to regret, but sometimes you can’t help it. Sometimes you cannot help yourself but to look back at something that you have done, and say, “Why in the world did I do that?” I love the statement that “Hindsight is 20/20″ What a brilliant statement. So many of my previous posts tie into this one. For an example, the post on willpower a while back. It blows my mind to compare my current mood and mental state, as well as what I’m going through in my life, compared to then. Honestly not much has changed since then, but I remember what I was going through in my life when I posted that, and it wasn’t a pleasant experience.
I guess the main problem with humans is that, overall we are not only stupid, but behave illogically. Everyone has at least heard of Spock from Star Trek. Well, he always said that humans were “illogical.” Can you disagree with him? I’ve noticed something lately. People hate when they are told that they have changed. I told someone a while back that she “Wasn’t the person that they used to be.” And she hated that so much! Is it more because people fear change, or because they want to display a constant persona? In my opinion it’s a little bit of both. But I think it’s more the former. I believe that when someone is told that they are different, they automatically assume it’s for the worst. Well, in most cases it is, but not always.
I also wonder how sincere the human race is capable of being. Of course some more than others, nevertheless are we sometimes deceived by sincerity? I think so, most definitely. I believe that the condition of the situation has an enormous effect on how someone treats you. For an example you’re dating someone, and that person treats you with the utmost respect. If you observe them treat other people the same way they treat you while you are dating, then their sincerity is authentic. That brings to mind an awesome quote by a man named Samuel Johnson
The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good.
Thoughts 7/19/2007 July 19, 2007
Posted by Kelsey Martineau in Philosophy, Religion.Tags: Philosophy, Religion
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*Suggested Topic by Bryan*
The suggested topic was:
The possibility of existence without purpose. Is it problematic for us as humans have no pre-ordained purpose in life?
This was an excellent suggested topic by Bryan. I will go ahead and say out in the open, yes, I believe so. I think that religion gives most people their purpose. I mean, let’s be honest, if there weren’t religions that kept people straight, would the law be enough? Definitely not. As Marx said, religion is the opium of the people. I don’t think religion gives everyone their purpose, but you also have to remember that statistically, atheists are more likely to be murderers than those with a chosen religion.
Regardless of whether or not we believe in destiny, we can still believe in a purpose for our life. Don’t get me wrong, the two sometimes go hand in hand, but human beings have the ability to create purpose for their life, even if they don’t believe there is a pre-ordained calling on your life. I know from experience, that the worst times of my life have been when I felt that I was stagnant, and unable to make a difference. However, I don’t know if that is simply my outlook on life, or everyone feels that way? I think to an extent, everyone feels like they need to make a difference in the world, even if it’s a small one. Everyone in their life has at least one event where they were the “hero” so to speak, and that always feels really good. Why does it feel good? Because we feel like we made a difference. We feel like we changed a life, or helped someone. That demonstrates the need for purpose in our life.
I am reminded of the quote from Agent Smith from The Matrix Reloaded:
We are not here because we are free; we are here because we are not free. There is no denying purpose, because as we both know without purpose, we would not exist. It is purpose that created us. Purpose that connects us. Purpose that pulls us, that guides us, that drives us. It is purpose that defines, purpose that binds us.
I know I refer to The Matrix series quite a bit, but it’s a very good reference point for a lot of my statements. Look at what Smith said, it is purpose that drives us, that connects us, etc… He even goes to saying that without purpose we would not exist. Does feeling as we have a purpose responsible for our creation? Let’s break it down a little. Think about your own life. Do you want to get married, have children, and raise them? If the answer is yes, then you have purpose in your life. It’s just like Smith said; we would cease to exist without purpose.
Thoughts 7/7/2007 July 7, 2007
Posted by Kelsey Martineau in Psychology, Religion.Tags: Psychology, Religion
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You know what my favorite thing about life is? The fact that it’s basically one big puzzle. I mean think about it; every single thing that we experience in life, for the most part, has to be figured out. I’m not using that old saying of “all the pieces in life eventually fit together.” That statement may be true, but that isn’t what I’m talking about. I’m referring to situations we experience. Ever had an event that you experienced simply not add up? At some point in our life, we all have I think. So how we react to that particular situation defines us. We have the ability in life to react to situations however we want. We may not have control over many things in life, but we can react in any way.
The consistancy of Christianity has been on my mind for the last two weeks. Actually, that statement works even if you aren’t a Christian. The reason I use Christianity, is because I am one, but as stated probably hundreds of times before in this blog, I do not hate you if you aren’t. What would that make me, as a Christian look like? To stray off of my main point for a second, let’s think about that. Christians sometimes have a bad reputation, and I’ll tell you exactly why; It’s because sometimes, some of these churches want to cast people into hell. Now before jumping to conclusion, think about that statement. I’ve been to churches where it’s almost like the congregation is ready to cast people into Hell, because they feel like they deserve it. But that simply isn’t what the Church, or Christianity as a whole is all about. It’s not about condemning people; It’s about bringing people to God. Now, to get back on topic, we were talking about the consistency of your religious walk. It can be applied to almost any religion out there. The consistency of what you believe is what defines you as a human being. If I talk one way, and act another, people will see that. If I claim to be a Christian, and go out and get drunk, carouse, etc… that is not remaining true to what I preach or believe, and I think that’s a very important part of spirituality. Granted, our walk with God, or the deity you choose to believe in, is much more important.
Christianity is not a synonym for perfection. I read that on someones myspace profile the other day, and that single statement meant so much to me. The world though, doesn’t see it that way. For some reason, people have attained the concept that if you are a Christian, that you are supposed to be perfect. People loved it when they heard about Mel Gibson getting drunk. I heard about it for weeks, and every time someone would mention it to me, I’d just respond with, “Well, he’s not Jesus, yes he created and directed The Passion of The Christ, but he isn’t perfect.” It comes back to Jesus’ statement about “He who is without sin cast the first stone.”
I think in life our main purpose should be to not only stand firm in what we believe, but if we’re truly passionate about it, share it. If you read this, and are a Muslim, and email me or comment disagreeing with me on anything, I’m not going to cast you down. I’m going to tell you that I respect what you believe. I have an enormous amount of respect for people that stand up for what they believe in. I always have, and I guess it’s because of how the rest of the world is.
Lost Character Personalities – Part 24 of 24 – Benjamin Linus July 7, 2007
Posted by Kelsey Martineau in Lost Character Analysis.Tags: Lost, Lost Character Analysis
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Benjamin Linus. Every single person that reads this analysis will agree with the statement that Ben is a manipulator to the core. Probably one of the most brilliant minds you will find on the island. Simply because he’s brilliant doesn’t mean he’s not evil. Evil seems to be very dependent on your point of view on many things. Ben refers to himself and the rest of the “others” as the good guys, but that doesn’t necessarily mean he’s right. Good guys don’t kidnap people, run tests on children, and manipulate people to reach your own goals. That’s a trait of an evil person.
We see Ben’s childhood, something that we don’t get to see for a lot of the other people on the island. Seeing someone as a child explains many, many things about their life. I can honestly say, seeing how Ben grew up, I understand why he is how he is. Ben lacked a father figure; although he had a father, he wasn’t a good one. I think that’s a very important thing in life. We have to feel accepted in this world, and Ben unfortunately missed out on that. Ben killed his dad, and felt it was greatly justified. He didn’t even bury the body, which is unbelievable.
Ben is a genius. He knows how to get exactly what he wants from not only people he knows very well, but also people that he doesn’t know very well, such as Jack, Locke, and many others. He’s a skilled liar, as we see in Season two. Remember when he claimed he was “Henry Gale.” Most of the information about the balloon, where he was from, among a lot of other stuff, was created on the fly I’m sure. It takes an extremely intelligent person to pull off something like that, and Ben did it with ease. Ben is able to think on the fly in situations, such as we saw in the Season three finale, when informing his men to kill Sayid, Jin, and Bernard if he didn’t hear him within one minute. That was simply a brilliant on-the-fly decision.
Although he’s a scoundrel sometimes, he at least has class. We see some manners shine through, for example eating breakfast with Kate, and being courteous the entire time. I guess sometimes it seems like his personality conflicts with itself. We see his courtesy, but then at other times we see the exact opposite. We can learn from Ben that a skilled manipulator can get what he wants when he wants it. In fact, when I hear the name Benjamin Linus, I think manipulation. We can also learn that a father figure is important in life. Although Ben seems to get what he wants most of the time, it doesn’t seem that he is always happy, which is something that we have all been through at some point in life.
Lost Character Personalities – Part 23 of 24 – Juliet Burke July 3, 2007
Posted by Kelsey Martineau in Lost Character Analysis.Tags: Lost, Lost Character Analysis
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Juliet Burke. I always had issues trusting Juliet. Even though she eventually turned out ok, you still have to wonder if she’s really going to stick with them. I mean, sure, she wants to get off the island just like everyone, but that doesn’t mean that she didn’t lie to the survivors at first, and continue helping Ben. I think Juliet’s attraction to Jack is because she truly believe Jack can save her, and everyone else on the island, and she likes that persistence in him. After seeing her past, it’s hard not to feel sorry for her. You see her sister almost die from cancer, but then everything gets turned around. The cancer is cured, and is pregnant. Ben claimed the cancer returned, and he could cure it if Juliet would remain on the island, but Ben’s manipulation will be covered in greater detail in his analysis.
Juliet is a very caring person, and she demonstrates this many times. She never stopped bringing Jack food, and was quick to trust him even after he almost killed her. That tells you a lot about a person. It’s similar to your walk in your religious faith, if you think about it. Being one way in your place of worship is one thing, but acting like it outside the church is something totally different. Even after Jack threatened her, she continued to do what was right, and that tells you a lot about her personality. You see her get so upset when her ex-husband gets hit by a bus, and dies. Of course we all would, but it just demonstrates her caring attitude. I think Jack made a bit of a misjudgement trusting her so fast. In fact, that’s a little out of Jack’s personality, usually it’s the opposite.
She feared not being accepted by the survivors of the plane crash, and her assumption that they wouldn’t trust her was right. But, I can’t blame them. You suddenly have a person that is part of a group that has kidnapped, and attempted to kill your people, wouldn’t you have issues too? You have to wonder if it was Jacob that cured her sister’s cancer? I mean, obviously we know that Jacob is supernatural; some type of god apparently, so is this the case?
In studying Juliet’s character, we can learn that lying is not a good thing. Ben manipulated and used her, attempting to convince her that she could leave if he obeyed what she did, causing her to lie many times, even to the survivors. But, being the person that she is, she saw the wrong in what she was doing and stopped before it was to late. I think that’s a very valuable lesson to learn.
Lost Character Personalities – Part 22 of 24 – Ethan Rom July 3, 2007
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Ethan Rom. We didn’t get a huge chance to see much of Ethan, until we started seeing him in some flashbacks in season three. The first thing that I think of when I hear his name now, is his persistence. If you remember, he altered the original plan of injecting Claire, and ended up kidnapping Charlie and Claire. That tells me right there that he is persistent in what he does and doesn’t take no for an answer. He seems like a kind person though, aside from a few moments. I never really understood why you would send a surgeon to investigate matters going on, especially if he’s the only one they had.
Apparently, Ethan had some sort of obsession with Claire. This is obvious, due to the fact that he probably kidnapped Claire and Charlie without any type of approval, but that’s simply speculation. I believe that Ethan underestimated how clever the other survivors were, eventually leading to his death. Ethan is also very convincing, as he assisted in talking Juliet into coming to the island to join the experiments.