We are so funny to me. Humans that is. We do some of the oddest things. We worry when we shouldn’t; we fret over things that are minor, and won’t matter in ten years, or usually even five. I just find that odd. It’s confusing to me why other people do it, but then I look at my own life, and I am one of the worst victims of that. Sometimes issues bother me that shouldn’t. Take my future for an example; I know that everything is going to work out for me great. I know my life is going to turn out fine, but I worry about decisions, and although sometimes major decisions, I know they will turn out fine. But you know what, a lot of times, I dwell on them, when I shouldn’t. I think my view on a lot of things have changed since I was younger. I used to take the world as a generally friendly place, but now I see, from a different point of view, that generally, people are evil. That’s why things like Communism can’t work in our world. That’s a whole different discussion though. But back to the point, yes people are generally evil. We all know that.

Maybe it’s just that I grow tired of routine. Do you ever wonder why that is? I mean, if you think back to when you were a kid, everything seemed to go so much slower. Christmas seemed like they were years apart. Everything revolved around something so simple. Nothing was complicated. We had our little friends at school, and our little projects. No relationship difficulties whatsoever, we didn’t even know what they were at that point. The highlight of our day was recess, and I lived for Saturday morning cartoons. Garfield rocked man! And now, if you compare your life back then to now, our current ones are like enigmas. I guess the routine that we do day by day causes everything to go by so fast. I mean if you think about your trip to work today, or the last time you went, you don’t remember details on it at all. That’s because it’s routine, and we know it like the back of our hands. But see when we were kids, everything was fresh and new, it wasn’t familiar. The older I get, the faster time passes. Kind of sad to stop and think about.

You know I’ve been thinking a lot about our society and how it works.  Let’s take people for an example; we pretend every day of our lives.  We really never act “real,”  There are definitely times when we’re in a bad mood, and what do we do when we see someone that is your friend, or even a stranger?  We pretend that everything is fine.  It’s so funny to me how that works.  Deep down there may be so much going on in our mind, but we don’t let others see that.  This really applies to more than just good and bad moods.  Think about how people act to their friends, opposed to how they act to strangers.  My job requires me to interact with people all day long, assisting them with computer issues.  There are some people that I will assist greatly, but they do not thank me or anything.  I have no problem with these; don’t mistake what I’m trying to say here.  It’s not an issue that they don’t thank me, but it’s an interesting thing to analyze, how they interact with me opposed to their friends they may come into the lab with. 

Sadly over the years, our world has become, to put it bluntly, assholes.  People are generally rude for some reason.  I don’t know why.  I don’t know why people are this way.  Maybe it’s just because there is more stress in the world now than there used to be, who knows?  That’s why I select my friends very carefully.  I don’t think we should waste our time with dumb people.  Another issue I’ve been dealing with lately is the fact that no one is willing to better themselves.  How can people, be so stupid, and act the way they do?  How can people not have enough sense to not know how to act in our society?  My parents taught me very well, but even if they wouldn’t have, I truly believe my instincts would tell me a lot of it.  Maybe over the years people have grown dumber, and that’s part of our problem?  Why has racism become more of an issue now than ever?  You know I saw an add the other day for “Black Singles” Which you had to be a black person to sign up.  Ok, let’s say someone did that and put, “White Singles Only,” Would that not cause uproar?  By all means I’m not racist.  I think it comes down to the morals and instincts a person has more than the color of their skin.  But, in my opinion, “Black Singles,” is reverse-racism. 

Wow. Time passes to fast. I find it hard to believe that I’ll be 21 in February. It’s a scary thought, it really is. I remember when I was about 10. I thought to myself, “Geez, I’ll never be 13.” Then, when I finally turned 13, I thought the same thing about 15, then 18. Now I just wish I could relive my childhood. I wish I could take back with me some of the knowledge too. That’s not entirely true though, because I do and I don’t; it would change who I am if I were to do that, but at the same time, I feel like I could do a lot of things better. Would changing the past make us better people? I would like to think so; but then again, if we had that knowledge, would it not tempt us to be corrupt individuals? Who knows?

Another thing that has bothered me lately is how our society operates in certain aspects. Take for an example: Attractive females. It absolutely sickens me how they assume that everyone owes them something. Most guys, now mind you I say most, which is probably around 90%, frankly, are ass kissers when it comes to fairly attractive women. This has always bothered me about our society. Individuals like Britney Spears, Jessica Simpson, etc… Which are probably generally dumb people; get ahead in life because of their looks. Research says that attractive females are three times as successful as unattractive ones, because of their looks. Is that really fair? No, because you have great minds that are wasted. I think good looks also go along with bitchiness, because not once have I met, nor dated, an attractive girl that wasn’t a bitch. I’m not ranting, I’m not angry, upset, or burned, I’m just stating a fact, from things I’ve observed in the last few days. It really is amazing how much you can learn just by watching interactions between people. Females in particular. Females seem to have a defense mechanism that they put up, when most guys approach them. But, it’s not the female putting it up usually, it’s the guy. Anyway, that’s off topic. That’s just what was on my mind today.

Life has taken a few interesting turns lately. Things aren’t necessarily the best that they have been, but that’s life. If things don’t always go as we hope they do, we sometimes get upset. But really, what good does that do us? It doesn’t help to fret, it doesn’t help to get angry or upset at things we can’t control. Nor does it help to complain, or belittle. I have realized in the last week who some of my true friends are, and some that aren’t. We can’t control what happens in life. We can’t control what other people do. Such a true statement if you think about it. A better question though: Would we want to? I watch all of these students in my room at work; come in and out, pretending to live out there lives, which they think is significant in the long run. But when in reality, it is so insignificant. It sickens me sometimes; it sickens me to watch superficial, insignificant people act like complete fools, for nothing more than their gain. That is life though. That’s our society. That is how most people were raised, that is the norm that they know. We all say we aren’t spoiled, and point fingers at those who are spoiled. But to be honest, we are all spoiled, extremely. We don’t really know what it is like to live without something. I mean sure, maybe our parents limited us on some things, causing us to grow up with, what some would call, good values. But in the long run, we all get what we want. That is human nature; that is the world. Take thieves for an example; they just attain what they want in another way. I’m not agreeing with their course of action, but how is it that different than what we do? Sure we work for it, sure we think we’ve “earned” it, but have we really? The answer is no. I guess I may be raving today but it just seems like people take way too much for granted in this world.