The years keep flying by don’t they?  It’s incredible to me.  I remember sitting down and blogging the last two years on my birthday, and it seems like around a week or so ago.  The older I get, the faster time passes.  It’s so amazing to me.

Ever wonder why and how things change?  How can you be so certain about something one day, and the next, turn around and your whole attitude change?  I can’t figure that out.  I guess it’s one of those wonders of life.  I just miss the simplicity of childhood.  Boy I know I probably run that statement in the ground, but isn’t it the truth? Do you ever sit back and ask yourself, “Is this it?”  Is this what I’m meant to do?  I do all the time.  I sit back and look at my life, and say is this the end?  Is it going to be like this for the rest of my life?  Will I be stuck in this routine, or will it change?  I don’t guess we can really know the truth, because life comes at us so fast. 

My friend Jonathan told me something on the phone tonight that made me think so much.  We were talking about life, and how God expects us to live, opposed to how we do live, and he told me one of the best examples that I have ever heard.  He told me that our life is kind of like one of those childrens blocks, you know the ones were you have different shapes that go through holes?  In example, a square block, and a square hole, a round block and a round hole, etc…?  Well he said if we follow what God has planned for our life, it is exactly like sticking one of the ones that fit right through.  But if we try to take it in our own hands, and change what God has planned for us, and try to stick a round block through a square hole, we have to cut it to make it fit, and in the end we become deformed, and something that is unnatural, because we are basically compensating.  That made so much sense to me.  Isn’t it the truth?  The happiest times in my life, and the best times, seems to be when I’m praying, I’m doing what I should, and I’m following God’s standards according to what I believe is right.  I think that’s all that matters in life.  The fact that this life doesn’t really matter as much as eternity has been on my mind a heck of a lot lately.  I feel like God is saying, “What does this life matter compared to what I have in store for you after?”  Day after day I feel like I am going to be in the ministry eventually.  I have quite a bit of grooming before that can happen though, but I think I may get there.

I’ve had a lot of dreams lately, and I think they are symbolic of many things.  I won’t go into detail on them, but I really think that something huge is going to happen to me soon.  I guess I’m straying off topic just a little.  I just believe that we should live life according to what we believe is right in God’s eyes, and that will be what will count in the end.  Because let’s face it, we all have a concience.  We know what is right and what is wrong.  So why don’t we do it?  Because it isn’t the most “fun” thing to do at the time.  I’ll tell you what though, I am looking forward to what is after this life, because sometimes I stop and think, if this life is all there is, then that is a little disappointing.